Expectation vs Reality

in everything we do...
im certain that we have some expectation to it...
either we want smething from it... or we want gratitute..
or expecting a good result out of it...

howerver, what if the reality is below our expectation???
when we expect to pass in exam...but we failed...
when we expect to be loves... but we are betrayed...
when we expect friends to comfort us like we comfort them when they are down...
but they seem do not care what happen to you...
when all this thing happen... what we going to feel?

FRUSTRATION...

I just want to share with the readers...
last night, I received a message from 1 person that i know...
this person, speaks about failure...
how he fail, a lots of time...
and he said that he has low self esteem during that time...
but everyone around him do not really care about him...
and complaining how people around him don't understand him...
that he is under pressure...

ok... that is from his point of view...
what he may not know is that...
he is the one who runs from it...
he don't want to face his failure...
and he expect people around him to comfort him all the time...
without considering either they have other problems or not...

sometimes... when we are frustrated...
we feels like everything is against us...
even a soap slip through our palm...
can make us very furious....

this guy... thinks that i don't know how he felt...
he speaks like he is the only person in this world...
that understands failure and frustration....
yeah right...
maybe our case is not same...
but i know frustration...maybe not 100%...but i've felt it...
there are many things happened to me before I join Curtin...
only Allah knew how I felt...
crying was a routine to me before...
its not easy ...
but those things are actually a mechanism...
to build the person that I am today...

this is because i was expecting higher than the reality...
so frustration is the result...
sometimes, reality is not as we expected it to be...
so we feels frustrated...

to relieve this frustration...
we blame everyone around us ...
we claim everyone around us don't care about us...

this is what happen to this person...
he thinks that everyone pity him...
because of that, he can do everything he wants...
say everything he likes...

well, im not like that...
i don't simply swallow what have you said to me...
if i thinks you are too much ... i said it...
i don't care how much my words hurt you...
you should also consider how your words may hurt other...
did you ever thinks of that???

Allah is fair...
He test us depend on our capability to face it...
Allah don't burden us with something that we consider too much...
Allah know us best...
we just have to pray, improve and tawakal(leave the rest to Allah)...
and everything that happen...
there are always positive side of it...
Allah is planning something for us ...
so we need to be patient ...

and my advice....
in our life... we will bumb into a junction...
where we have to chose our path...
so decide what is best for us...
and make sure you decide yourself...
and be responsible to it...
you decide your future...

lastly, in relationship...
if we do something to someone...
dont ever expect a return from that person...
my best friend once told me;
"a perfect relationship is when one loves another without expecting to be loved"

May Allah show you the way ...
Let us also pray for this person...
so he can face it strongly ...

Thank you ...

A trip to Johor

yup. Last Tuesday, i went to johor to sent my grandma back to her home...
the trip start in the morning, where i have to take bus from Puduraya...
when arriving, there this one fat guy hurrying onto me and ask me where am i going...
so i told them... quickly he replied,
"Ahh.. the bus moving now.. hurry up...it is waiting at platform"

then he brought me to a counter, the sign says "Hasry Express" ...
and then i thought, oh my, i don't really trust company that aren't established like Transnational for example...
but then I rethink;
"If this company is unreliable, then why is it still standing yet still have many customer"

at that time, my only goal is to get to Johor Bharu as fast as possible...
so i agreed to buy 2 tickets to Johor...
n suddenly another guy approached me with two small papers and told me...
"Bus is at Platform 12,"

so I hurried myself and carried my grandma's luggage...
since the first guy told me that the bus is leaving...

when i reached at platform 12, an old man wearing yellow shirt ask for my tickets...
right after he looked into my tickets...
"Go down..."

okay... he doesn't look friendly ...
but when i reach there... there's no bus at all...
so i went back to see this old man and ask....
"Where is the bus???", he replied
"The bus will come." and he adds, "This bus usually problematic. They are not punctual."

I was shocked at first, because that guy told me that the bus is leaving...
he adds more..
"This bus ... they always wait until the bus is full, then they leave.."
I asked back ; "this is not your company??"
he replied; "No.. Use City Express la...,"while pointing at his yellow shirt...
"We always on time and we have many bus going to JB."
He even showed me his timetable with the scheduled buses every 1 hour...

I was unhappy..
I asked my grandma to wait at the platform while i went to ask for explanation..
the lady at the counter was busy calling for customers..
then i quickly asked;
"Where is your bus?? Just now you've told me the bus is waiting to move.."
she replied briefly;
"The bus is waiting for its turn to enter the platform,"then she continue to call other customer..

how rude.. They deceived me and I don't like being deceived...
but there is nothing i can do.. because i already bought 2 tickets which cost me RM62..

so my lesson of the day...
don't ever ride this kind of bus ever again..
n i've checked the price at Transnational, it only cost me RM31.20...
extra RM0.20 for a happy ride...

FYI, the bus that i took, reach at the platform 10.30am...
i've waited since 9.30pm...
n the bus is supposed to reach JB at 3.00pm...
but unfortunately, i reached JB at 4.30pm...

i will never forget the face of the person who deceived me...
just you wait...

so guys .. next time.. make a right choice...

After long sleep

wow. i don't know how long have it been when the last time I see my blog. It seems dead. Well, i tried to write few times already . but somehow i don't think it is something fun to share or interesting. anyway, i think i ll start writing again. But this time in full english version. haha. i just to practice my English. That's all.